Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Today I dont know whats going on w me! ):
I feel so lazy.
I feel so stressed.
I feel so sad.
I feel so lonely.
I feel so sad.
I feel so lonely.
I feel so ANGRY!
I feel like crying.
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Why am I feeling all this? What is happening to me? I sleep all day. While on th bed, I kept thinking what is my mistake, etc etc. I feel sad cuz its like everybody in my life, one by one is leaving me. Why eh? &I feel sad too cuz my handphone is not working. Th buttons arent working. I dont want to lose my phone cuz it holds so many memories. Pfft! Then suddenly, I feel lonely. idontknow why? Where should I dump this feelings that I had? Rather than my 3 wonderful girlfs, I got nobody to talk to. Yeahyeah, I got no boyfriend yet. It feels so hard to contact " insertname " back. Text him, he never reply. ): I feel so angry, because of my niece. That sewel girl. NURMARSYA. I dontwant to hate her, but because of her, me &my other 2sister fought in FB. Like childish, I know. That Marsya, if she wants to talk bad about me, dont have in FB. She can say it directly to me what. Ive just sent her a msg on FB &this is what I sent.
Eh YOU, yeah YOU! Tolong uh klau kau mahu bbl kotor pat fb psl aku, beralas siket uh weyh. Eh ni fb uh. Pakai otak siket uh. Pasal KAU, kakak kakak aku &aku, gadoh. Kau ada paham tak? Yg kau tahu, nak hancurkan hidup aku kan? Pls uh. Prangai kau tu yg tak senonoh tu pls stop uh eyh. Klau nk bobal, kte ada caracaranya uh! Tak payah nak bukakbukak pat sini! Step kau tak pernah maki aku uh kan? Kau ape ada kisah uh kan? Aku lak, apa ada kisah pasal kau uh kan? Eh dah uh eh, malas uh aku nak layan sedara mcm kau. Eh weyh p.s uh ehk, aku sent kau msg ni, sebab aku marahkan kau uh eh. Tak da niat lain!
Just because I scolded her, " FUCKYOU " it doesnt mean that my sis have to lecture me. Step my sis never use that word before when she was 14 right? I really hate my sis. Yeah really hate her. I know that Marsya is just 11years old. But when shes w me, shes acting as though that she is bigger than me. Like bigfuck like that. Scold me using vulgar word somemore. Still, I dont care. She also learnt that kind of words from her friends also what? You two sis dont have to put th blame on me, sebulabulat nya uh kan?! So fucked up siah by my two sis, especially th " SINGA BETINA " larh! Like I said, even my families also know that I dont like her. I dont care if shes my sis or what. &for 9years, Ive hated her. I dont like her way of teaching me or lecturing me. &guess what, recently, Ive just know that my 2 of my kakak sedara also dont really like my sis although they grow up since childhood. My sis like to clubbing &2 of my kakak sedara, doesnt like. But my sis ni pulak, otak letak pat mane pun taktahu, she forced 2of my kakak sedara to go clubbing w her. Like stupid right?! Shes having a baby also, still wants to go clubbing &drink &drunk. Perangai siah my sis. Ergh~ till here ppls.
" I gotta smile eventhough it hurts. "
Assalamualaikum.
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