Thursday, October 29, 2009
It's unbelievable that when just friends turned out to be best friends &lastly became, lovers.
Hairil, the guy that I loved to be pampered with! But, now, after we became lovers, everything changed. It's like we're no more bestfriends. *sobsob*
" And though there are times when I hate you cause I can't erase.
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face.
And even now while I hate you it pains me to say.
I know I'll be there at the end of the day. "
~ Broken Hearted Girl - Beyonce. ~
Ril truly understands me. I share with him everything about my life, well not everything. He keeps all my secrets safely with him. There are times when I hate him after I broke his heart &make him sad, err, but he never ever has hated me before. He said that, " I will never hate you even though you hurt me real bad. " I translate to english. Err yeah. He never hate me? I don't believe that but he sounds so honest. Ergh. I hurt him, he never complain but when he hurts me, I complain. I'm not being fair to him. Why must we two fall in love with each other at the same time? I thought that after I accepted him, things will still be the same, but it's not what I thought it will be. I've became more harsh towards him. Scold him. Still, he keeps quiet. That point of time, I feel like wanna break up with him &tell him to be best friends again, but I can't tell him, scared it hurt him more. *sigh*
Me &him, stead for 1time &patched back err like 2times. Hmm, nice lh tu. 2times of patching up, I still repeat the same mistake. I think that we're not meant to be together. We should just be, best friends. I can pamper with you more just like in the past. *giggles* But, after our break up last 2weeks, he never contact with me again. Sad huh? Never mine, I can always persuade him. *smile widely* Maybe, during the holidays, I plan going to Sentosa &ECP, &I ask Ril &his friends to tag along. So we could spend more time again. I wanna make up with him. ( as a best friend again. )
Skip~
Today wake up at 1plus. I've on the alarm clock at 11am, also I cannot wake up. Hahaha. Yesterday, I had this really bad headache siah! Wah piang ehh! Feel like crying siah. Hehe, I didn't take panadol uh that's why. Later will be going out to hospital with nenek. Me alone. My cousin never teman me. He besarkan dia peh jamming only. Pfffttt -.- whadda. Nenek walk slow, &me walk fast. How? Aiyahhh, I feel like giving nenek roller blade to walk faster siah. Grrr, today actually, me &wani planned to go out cause she wanna do her fringe but last minute cancel cause her mother went back late. Aiyooooo. Kay never mine, now I needa some rest. Ergh, stupid headache!
Sayang y'all semuanya.
Assalamualaikum.
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